I’ll be telling all my affiliates of this change soon,
Take care,
Rachxxx

THANK YOUU!!

I have a couple of sitely things to say, then I’ll be off. First, yes, yes I know how much you hate the layout. I hate it too. I will change it soon, I promise. I really really don’t like this layout. Maybe..next week? Next week defiantly. Also I’ve recently become a bit…board(?) of this whole site-building-thing. I love blogging, and I love the people I’ve met here, I just can’t really be bothered with it anymore. I kinda want a fresh start. I love this site, I really do, but theres so many things about the site atm that I don’t like. What I would really like is my own domain, I wish I could afford one. The thing is, moneys tight at home atm and my parents can’t afford to spend any extra money on me (they spend enough already). Once I’ve brought the domain, hosting, it just all adds up. They’ve already brought me Paint Shop Pro which I really appreciate. I can’t afford it as any money I’m making goes toward other things at the moment. I’ve been entering loads of free domain contests recently but I doubt I’ll win. I don’t know. I’ll work something out.

Oh and yes, I am going to a wedding in a week. I can’t say I’m the biggest fan of weddings. The last one I went to was a disaster because I knew no-one and my friend had just died so I wasn’t in the mood for making new friends. I hated the dress I had, and I genuinely didn’t have a good time. I guess this one will be better because I will no more people and I’m not crying the whole time. I’m wearing an 2 alright dresses (not at the same time, there’s two different parties) (I may post a picture, if you guys want one) so I guess it might be better. I dunno, we’ll see how it goes.

Back to school tomorrow. Dunno how much I’ll be blogging. I’ll definatly blog before I go off to London on Thursday night though!

I have to say I’m starting to like video blogging a bit more than this whole, normal blogging thing. I find talking easier than writing, so yeah. I think you can start to expect more Vlogs. Except, I only like to film them when no one else is in the house. On my last one my mum walked in half way through and I made up some stupid excuse to what I was doing. I dunno, I’ll sort something out.

So right now I’m in my brothers bed (no, not WITH my brother) because my antie and uncle have come to stay with my two young cousins and they have taken over my room. My brothers down with my parents and I’m in his bed. I’m LOVING having my cousins over. They are only 2 and 4 years old, but they live in Brazil so I never get to see them. Plus they are TOO sweet. I wish they lived here Tomorrow the Poland boy’s & Emma are coming over to work on the video. If we get it done tomorrow I maayy post it. But that depends on a lot of things. I don’t know, if you’re lucky!

(Sorry the editing so bad!)

New layout! I literally THREW this one together. I couldn’t bear looking at the old one, I grew to hate it haha! Anyway, what do you think. Please note this is only temp! The CSS is AWFUL, and the header image isn’t rocket science to come up with so I will be changing this very very soon. But do you like the simple thing?

EDIT (5 mins later): Okay I hate this layout already. New one tomorrow at the LATEST.

EDIT (3 hours later): Been working on the new layout for the last 3 hours. The new layout’s a lot more complicated than what I’ve done before. Too tired to carry on working on it tonight (3.11AM). I’ll let you guys know how it’s going tomorrow. (The coding of the new layout has kinda messed up the coding for this layout a bit, sorry!)

Then this afternoon I went to Emma’s mum’s “thank-you party”. Basically, Emma’s mum was diagnosed with breast cancer about a year ago and she threw a party for everyone who has supported her. It was quite nice, I met a load of really nice new people there and it was really nice just to sit around chatting. All this morning I spent catching up on coursework so it was a really nice way to end the day.

This is the only chance I’ve really to blog. I really think I’m gonna have to cut down on the amount of time I spend online, I have coursework deadlines to meet, homework to keep on top of, school, after school clubs, friends and family. I don’t want to close the site, and I don’t plan to, but updates/blogs won’t come as often (not that they came that often anyway) so just be prepared. I still wanna stay in touch with all you guys though!

You know yesterday I blogged about how with a list of things I wanted to do before the end of year 11? And one of them was to get an A*? Well I GOT ONE! I’m so happy, it’s the first A* I have got in my whole life Sorry, short blog. Had to share that

1. Get a “C” or higher in Maths, English and Science so I can get into the college I want to go to.
2. Get a domain.
3. Teach myself some new stuff on the piano.
4. Lose a bit of weight and keep it off.
5. Get a job.
6. Get an A* in something (I’ve never got one before).
7. Stop biting my nails.
8. Try my very best to enjoy my last year at school.
9. Get all my coursework in on time.
10. Pass all (or most) of my GCSE’s.
11. Meet some new people.
12. Go to Glastonbury Festival.
13. Stop spending whole days at home.

I’ll probably add more soon

I won’t got into a huge amount of detail because that would take me all night, but basically her mother gave birth to her whilst on the back of a train, with people lying (some of them dead) on top of her, with German guards shouting “keep screaming” at her. I can’t begin to imagine how painful that must have been for her. She is still alive today and I would love to meet her. She sounds amazing. Her story is amazing. Also, when she gave birth she weighed only 5 stone, she had been starved for 3 weeks.

This story made me desperately want to know my own families story. I know the small amount my Granddad has talked about (he finds it very difficult to talk about his experiences in the war) but I asked my Dad if he could possibly ask him for some more and my Dad said he thinks he might just be ready to talk about it. My Granddad knows he’s not going to live forever and I think he knows how important it is that my family story is remembered. I mean, I all I know so far is that my Granddad got on the last train out of Prague, I want to know about my Great-Grandparents. I want to know how they died and what there lives were like. I just have so many questions that only my Granddad can answer. I really hope he finds the courage to talk about it before it’s too late.

I think over the past week what happened with the holocaust has hit me, but tonight it really got me bad. I can’t bear the idea that my family, the people who made me…possible…died in such a horrible, disgusting way. I hate the fact that they died thinking that maybe no one will remember them, because all their family might have died. It makes me sick. I am so grateful for the fact that my Granddad is still here with us and I hope that one day he’ll tell us his story.

We spend the first couple of days travelling to Krakow by train. We stayed at a youth hostel in the centre of Krakow. It wasn’t the nicest hostel I’ve stayed in in my life, but it was alright. It was quite nice because we met a lot of interesting people and we all had a laugh whilst we were there. On our second day in Krakow we went to the first concentration camp which is called Auschwitz.

Me and Emma cried a lot in Auschwitz. The things that happened there were just…awful. I couldn’t bear to look at some of the things I saw in that museum. It was just disgusting. There was one sign that was up outside this small shed which we were all totally shocked at. We didn’t cry, we just stared at it in shock. It said this:

In this barrack SS doctors and nurses murdered newborn babies and their mothers by phenol injections.

I couldn’t get over that. It’s just disgusting isn’t it? Also in Auschwitz there was rooms full of human hair which had been shaved from the prisoners and lots of other stuff. I couldn’t bear to look at most of it.

After that we had travelled to the Czech Republic. We had one free day there which we spent visiting synagogues. Some of them were really beautiful and very interesting. We also (in the memorial synagogue with all the Czech Jews who died names on the wall) found several of my family names on the wall, which was incredibly moving.

Then we went to Terezin. Terezin was very different to Auschwitz in that it wasn’t a death camp, it was a holding camp where the Jews (and other minority groups) where “stored” until they could be taken to a death camp. This wasn’t as horrible as Auschwitz, but it was still very shocking the way the people there were treated.

Other than the camps, we did have a good laugh and I had a really amazing experience. I loved it. I will post a video, and some photos when I have time to upload them all. And, I’ll answer all the comments I haven’t already answered as soon as possible. Speak soon everybody!

[EDIT] I’ve been tagged by my affiliate Vicky! Basically the rules are I have to tell you 4 true things about myself and one lie, then you have to tell me which one’s the lie! In my next blog I’ll tell you which ones the lie and I’ll also list everybody who got it right!

• Most cheese makes me feel sick.
• I love the Harry Potter books.
• I have a Futurama poster on my bedroom wall.
• I play the guitar.
• I have a acer laptop.
  
  

I tag Joyce, Jen, Tim and Emily. Please no tag backs!

So I’m leaving for Poland this afternoon. I’ll go to the first concentration camp tomorow and then fit 2 more camps in throughout the week. I’ll be back by Saturday afternoon so I’ll probably blog about how it went then. Me and my friend Emma plan to do a video blog whilst we’re there so I might show you guys that depending on how much of my friends it shows (I have to respect there privicy). Also, I’m taking my camera so I’ll definatly be taking a lot of photos and I’ll post some of them.

Okay, I just got nervous. I’m off in like 5 hours. Omg omg omg omg. Guyss wish me luck! I’m gonna need it! I’m sure I’ll be fine…

Okay, dyslexia is a learning dificaltly. It basically means I find writing, reading and spelling very difficalt. It is an incureable dificalty, so unless someone comes up with a mirical cure, I’m stuck with it for the rest of my life. Noticed any spelling mistakes or sentacnes that don’t make sence around the site? Have I used a “q” instead of a “p”? All this is caused by my dyslexia. I have to have extra help at school, I get someone who reads for me in exams and I always have to type my work because otherwize no-body would understand it.

I was diagnosed with dyslexicia when I was around 8 or 9 years old. My mum noticed I read very slowly for someone my age and also that my spelling was appuling. She took me to a clinic, they tested me and said that I definatly had a problem.

Being dyslexic does not mean that I’m stupid, it just means we find it difficalt getting what we have in our heads onto paper. There are hundruds of famous dyslexics. My Dad is dyslexic and they think that I probably got it genetically off him.

Hope all you haterzz get the message now

[/EDIT] New content! (Finally). Icon textures this way. [/EDIT]

Soo I’ve cleaned the bathroom (including the toilets *throws up*), tidyed and hovered the whole downstaires and cleaned all the kitchen stuff (stove, fridge etc). I bet my mum will get home and give me a fiver or something. Greattt. The boys went busking yesterday but only made 60p and ended up spending that on a bottel of water on there way home! So basically, we really don’t think we’re gonna be eating on this trip!

Anyway, onto the sitely stuff. Firstly, the review thing. Thank you to everyone who offered to help me, I don’t really know what I’m going to do about this problem yet but if I do decide to ask some people to help me, you’ll be the first people I email, if I decide to carry on doing all the reviews myself, then thank you all very much for offering. Update-wize, I’m going to try and get one more coded layout and one more review before I leave for Poland on Sunday. After that it’s back-to-school time so it will be back to mainly blogging again.

[EDIT] I’ve finally got round to downloading and installing an “ask and answer” script! Yay! click here to ask me a question! [/EDIT]

One option is that I could have like 3 more people who could help me review sites. Then people could have the option of me, or another person revewing there site. If anyone would be willing to review a couple of sites a month for me, please let me know!

Also, I could accept 5 people at a time for a review. So once theres 5 people on the waiting list, I’ll close applications ’till I finish those 5 reviews.

If anyone has any other ideas, then please let me know! I would appricate it!

Tomorow I’m going to see The Dark Knight yet again. I love it sooo much! If any of you guys haven’t seen it you mustt go see it asap. I’m terrified of clowns and I was so scared to go see it, but I really really enjoyed it. Heath Ledger is just ammazzinnggg. It’s so so sad he died so young, he was such an amazing actor. I love the line when he says “Why so serious? Let’s put a smile on that face” (it’s my MSN name aha!) Ever since I saw The Dark Knight I’ve been wanting to watch some of his other films (I haven’t seen any of the others). Any reccomendations?

Also, my dad’s friend told me I should watch a film called “Everything is Illiminatied” before I go to Poland because it ties in with the whole film. Has anyone seen it? Is it good? I went into town after the cinema today to see if I could find it but it seemed to be out of stock everywhere. I guess that means a lot of people want to buy it so it must be good? Aha, I don’t know. Just lemme know if you’ve seen it and what you thought of it.

Ooo 1 more thing. I downloaded a song today called Always by Bon Jovi and I have totally fallen in lovee with it. It’s sooo georgous! It’s the best love song I think I’ve ever heard. Download it everybody!